
….so very grateful….the storm inside my soul…now, somewhat under control…

….so very grateful….the storm inside my soul…now, somewhat under control…
Several various coins, stacks of cash. More than anyone knows. Counted up, buried in a hole. Hidden away from prying eyes. The bank robber removes his disguise. His face? It was no surprise.

…he plays what he wants to play….
My mixed up mind, giving me fright. Everyday, darkness and light. Wrong from right, hard to discern. Every lesson, apparently unlearned. New day here, what will appear? Good or bad and in what form? Always interesting. The calm before the storm.
So close, left behind. Leaving memories. Empty, blind. Where are you now? Cross town? Fake life, lost and found. I go on, that’s what I do. Once again, without you.
Her picture on my phone, so many years ago. Loved her way back then, in my heart again. Far too long alone, she lives inside my soul. Memories haven’t changed, feelings still the same. Still, remembering the pain, how does love remain?

…Ezra and I have company…
Trying to forget you, wipe my memory clean. Take it far away. Out to sea, drop it in. I begin. Restoring my sanity. Reaching stability. Another chapter, lesson learned. Memories of her, successfully interred.
Perplexed, flummoxed, confused and bewildered. Disjointed, disillusioned, dismayed and rejected. Mind numbing mania, brain is infected. Interesting but true. I’ll be five separate people, before this day is through.
Words are free. Talk is cheap. Only actions matter to me. I try to ignore, I don’t care to see. I refuse to watch her abandoning me. Taking my heart, piece at a time. Without any warning, reason or rhyme.